As you have probably been reading I have a few issues at present in the old work situation. After having only just moved jobs into what I thought was a better company I find myself believing I may have misjudged the situation. I thought I was coming into the company on a very nice salary as a senior member of staff because they wanted me to lead an important piece of work of which I have plenty of experience. Unfortunately after a re-shuffle (yes already) it looks like I have been demoted. Which I am not too happy about… my idea of a job is not only about the earning money but also about having some say in how things happen and how we drive strategy within the business. They are paying for my experience in the field, not for a guy who is just an extra pair of hands!
Anyway needless to say I am attempting to resolve the situation internally speaking with senior members of staff trying to determine whether the situation is resolvable. Although it does not help having a manager who does not listen and who is actively trying to push me down the chain. I am hopeful that the situation can be resolved but also cautious that I do not want to be without a job. As such have started contacting my collegues in the industry to look for other oppertunities. A nice job may be on offer working for the company I vowed I would never work for… but the choice between the devil and the deep blue sea… at least I know where I stand with the devil…. or sit as the case may be…. probably at 36,000ft jetting around Europe… the advantage is I will be able to go on holiday for free with my BA points, and probably stay in a hotel for free with my Hilton points! – all I need now is someone to share it with!
On the man front…. I eventually broke my lack of action.. meeting a nice guy yesterday… unfortunately he hasnt contacted me since we met, although it is early days!
I have been chatting with my “ex’s” BF…. now I know those of you out there will be saying what the f**k are you doing…. but there is a motive. The motive is to show him that I am not a bastard and to get to know him. If I want my ex to remain a part of my life I have to accept and understand his BF. I know his BF will resent me, but in this day and age we have to move beyond resentment. I hope one day we may be able to become friends. So far he seems a lovely bloke, and I must admit I am very jealous of him as he has the life I would have loved, but there is no point crying over this. I have to learn to move on, and change my attitude towards my ex, knowing that we can never be together. Its hard… but then life overall is hard. The track that kind of sumarises my feelings towards my ex is Snow Patrol – Your All I Have, followed by You Could Be Happy. I admit recently I have listened to these tracks a lot… and maybe shed the odd tear. Not that I would ever want a relationship with the guy, its more that literally there are only a handful of people on this planet who “get” me…. and he is one of them (probably the only one).
Anyhow…. in other news I now have a new “fad diet” to try…. well this one is actually based on lots of science… from a book I am readin “How we get fat” whih turns conventional thinking on its head. As a result I thought I would give it a try… combined with exersize. So its carbs out (although have just been bad and had a pannini) but this was only 43g of carbs, and my body was begining to hurt from carb avoidance. Was very funny earlier, I had scrambled egg for breakfast – then got super hungry after a 6.3km run (was supposed to be 10km but it started hammering it down). Went into my home town dashed to Sainsburys bought some chicken drumsticks and litterally ripped the thing to bits in the enterence…. I must have looked like a right cannibal!!! Still didnt do the trick hence just had the pannini! And so far we are only 48 hours in…. this is going to be a hard one… but as usual (seen as im analy retentive) I have a day by day plan of food intake, exercise plan and weight tracker…. all I need now is facial surgery, weight training and lots of spare time… then I truly can be a six pack super beast (there is always the option of just taking hormone supliments – apparently the research also suggests testosterone can help fat conversion to energy!).
On that note… im going to go have another skinny latte…. or maybe americano…. see how I feel… then head to get my head examined – well ok my eyes but its almost the same! – Yes im listening to Snow Patrol again….. “takes a deep breath”
Update: it turns out skinny lattes contain around 20g of carbs… That screws today up then! Balls!!! And what will I do without coffee! Well could do Americano! They recommend soy milk latte (standby while I wrench!!!)