So, after a busy week of both work job etc things are kinda moving!
I have decided to leave my current role and go back to working for very large international companies in an international role. Now I know some of you are saying WTF!!! But there is a reason for this:
– Current role is not what I signed up for!
– I have been demoted!
– Company is going no-where
– My current boss is a first class prick (in fact he was a Citreon car sales man in a past life, so says it all!)
So new role is back with a large company – not evil as these are a nice company although I suspect will push me hard, and I am not sure about the slight pay cut, or the being based 3-4 days outside the UK! But hey – it could be worse!
New job starts 1st of next month, so onward and upwards. Just need to resign from current role…. hmmmmm
Where I live is getting sorted, I now have decided I am moving out on the 29th, not sure where I am going yet… that is the purpose of this weekend…. but decisive action has at least been taken. The landlord is coming to do inspection tomorrow and take me out for lunch.
On the relationships front, before I jump straight into working my ass off (which is what I intend to do for the next 24 months) I thought I should try and mend some bridges that I had damaged. As a result I emailed one of two people who mean a lot to me to let them know that I am sorry and would at least like to think I am grown up enough to at least have them as friends – albeit its likely they will be “pen pals” almost. Im actually tempted to take the companies offer of working in Germany for the next 24 months as I kinda feel it would help me repair some of the mess in my head if I am out there and have some proper time to reflect where I cant just immerse myself in TV or the pub. Plus I could learn to actually speak German rather than just the swear words – “Das Bulle!!!” hahaha
Will see what happens – I am not holding my breath. I know I’m a complex little thing who at times is pretty fragile and hides in work, and probably hiding in work isnt the answer but when outside of work is that messy then at the moment its the only thing that I can see as stable and has the ability to hold me together.
There is a worry…. I did watch “neighbour hood patrol” yesterday where they found a man dead in his house, he was 81, had no family, had retired many years earlier and was a radio enthusiast. The realisation that that is probably what is in store for me in the future is worrying, but inevitable. So enjoy working hard now to save enough money so I can at least retire in a nice house and leave plenty of cash for my nephew on my demise – he’s already set to be a wealthy three year old if I pop my clogs!