There is a huge issue I have with planning things. I’m sure my psychologist would hone in on this and explain its my mums fault for not breast feeding me into my teens. Anyway I seem to go through spats of trying to organise myself but then run into huge conflict with myself.
I’m sure my ex’s could point to many faults and failures but this does appear to be a fundamental one.
Yet at work I can plan things to the nth degree just don’t have the same ability in personal situations.
I think it boils down to failing to plan because when I do and get let down it makes me feel unwanted. So therefore the solution is don’t plan and then you can’t get let down.
When I do plan things- as we saw in the last post they massively go tits up. So the alternative is not to plan and take things easy. But then get annoyed that I don’t do anything and sporadic spur of the moment meets fuck up.
So come on big wide world what is the damn answer. I try running my life with google apps and it turns into a massive fail. And when I try and do spur of moment turns into an equal fail. Why can’t it be like work where I go into outlook check their calendars and then schedule events then scream at the ass holes if they don’t attend my meetings! Grrrrrr