Here we are for the second to last time possibly ever. On my way to Dusseldorf onboard an A319 British Airways club class flight listening to me blue sky while staring out of the window over a beautiful sunny blue German sky, all paid for by vodafone. Yes it’s my last week of my old job before I switch to new job. I can’t say I have hated evil industries but at times it has been very trying. There is an episode of reaper where Sam works for a huge conglomerate that is run by hell. With everyone in it for themselves trying to climb the greasy pole. Well evil industries is a little like that. But there are some very good people there. I feel I should do some shout outs to some tremendous folk like G, my current senior manager who is an absolute star, then there’s Reevesy who again is an SM but again not like the rest. It tends to be the senior execs and managers who are the grease bags. There are some really good ones then there are the ones who would sell there own granny’s to climb the pole.
There have been some amazing friends I have met through evil corp, such as JB, RN and Thulya! 🙂
The work hasn’t been that fulfilling to be honest, a good irish friend of mine said the easiest way to know which company to work for is to take away all money. Which company would you still work for, even if it was for free. To be fair the new company has had lots of my spare and holiday time so that pretty much answers that question.
While its great to be flying all over Europe, and doing the business class thing, it’s not all people make out. Getting up at 5am, queuing in airports, sat still on a plane for hours, losing your social life and being constantly nackered. Maybe I will still do a little of this with new company but not on a weekly basis!!
So end to another chapter? I think not, more the start of a new page. Things have been going well, I can get my social life back on track, will have more disposable income and can start enjoying life again a little more. Plus can start and see if there is anything on the horizon with guys out there… Although not really looking, I like being single at the moment although a cuddle wouldn’t go a miss now and then!
It does really make me wonder at times what do I really want? I had a great job at mobile company, ok it wasn’t going anywhere, then got great job with company where I could go somewhere but hated job, now going back to job where promotion is limited but I will have respect and will enjoy. Its same with men… Had some great relationships and each time I somehow fuck it up. And yes it has been me on the whole who has caused the destruction. As “the twat” said, everytime I have the opportunity to have a great friendship and relationship I will do my best to destroy it. Sounds about right. Could it be something from childhood that has brought about this ability to deliberately spoil my own happiness? Do I psychologically believe I don’t deserve to be happy therefore bring it to a halt. Bit like driving a car as soon as you get to 80 miles an hour the steering wheel wobbles so I pull over and change cars… Whereas the car could have been the best one in the world ideally suited to me.
Let’s see what the next few weeks hold, it will certainly be exciting moving jobs, if not a little risky with the t&cs but hey life it all about calculated risks, if it wasn’t it would be damn boring!